happy endings.

It's funny how much you can see in a person's eyes, once you really stop and look.  The love is there, I've seen it.  It's that moment when they smile and you  see a little bit of light spill out around the edges.  It's their favorite song and giving up half of their peanut butter and honey sandwich for you. It's laughter, and it's jamocha shakes from Arby's. 

It's love, and I've seen it.

And it's hard to look into the empty eyes of someone you used to know.  It's hard to look just to see that all the light has gone, taking with it a little bit of yours, too.  And every time you look back you'll see what's missing again, and it's hard to believe that you'll ever get any of it back. It's that little place in your heart, that little piece of love, that will always be reserved for them.

It's hard today, and I'm not sure that it'll ever get any easier.    

Then I look to that picture taped to my wall because all we can do now is love and wait and hope that maybe one day we'll have the chance to help somebody.

Yes, for now, I'll just wait and pray,
                        "Come back home, please."


-Linds

I Really Can't Stay.

                                          

                                    

I sit in sacrament, and I watch the first snow fall, 
and all I really want to do is go and touch the cold glass. 
I want my fingers to freeze and I want to see my breathe; it makes me feel a little more alive. 
I want to pray, and I want to really feel something. 
I want to feel the goose bumps on my arms and the snowflakes on my eyelashes. 
I want to watch the earth and the snow covered trees.

And I'll sit, and I'll feel, and I'll love. 
Because there's something about the seasons changing that really gets to me. 
Especially this one, because this time it's not so much about me, but Him. 
And we have the next twelve days to give to Him,
and I'm so grateful for that.

And I hope that everytime your socks are wet from the puddles of lost snowflakes, that you'll remember Him. 
I hope that every present you wrap and every light you see, inspires you to be better for Him.  
I hope that you'll drink hot chocolate with your best friends and that you'll be happy while doing it, because that's exactly what He would hope for you, too.

And I hope that you'll remember Christ this Christmas.

-Linds

Sometimes Books Teach Me Stuff

"There are some things that you hate

and some things that you thank God for

and some things that are both."

-The Prince Of Frogtown

Two Cents.

    

     Life is about living, and living entails happiness and sadness and joy and work.  Sometimes I forget the purpose, though, and I think to myself that it's just too hard.  Life is hard, and I think it again.  One day my mom heard my rantings and she laughed a little as she asked me this: Life is hard?  Do you really believe that? 

     She said it quietly, she said it slowly, and I thought.  It took a lot of years and a lot of questions before I realized that life isn't about being hard.  Life is simple, or it could be.  If we chose to smile, to work, to pray, to prioritize, it could be simple. 

      Let go of the things that aren't worth it.  Let go of the hurt feelings and let go of the people who put them there.  Let go and love.

      Do the things that matter, but don't mistake urgency for importance.  If you feel the inspiration, follow it, and if you find someone who needs love, give it.  Some days there are papers to be written and math problems to be solved, but I've found that when you make time running errands for God, He makes time for everything else.

      Live deliberately with love, with strength, with compassion, and everything else will fall into place.  There are bad things, and scary things, and hard things, but He can make them easier.

      Make today worth living.  Do something to make yourself better, happier, stronger.  Be aware and live today with a deliberate purpose and desire to grow.  And as you do you'll find love and joy and a new confidence in yourself.  You'll realize that there are some things that only you can do, some people who only you can bless.  And when you find that new love for yourself, life becomes easier.  It becomes an opportunity to serve and grow.  It becomes happiness, and everything else will work out.  

-Linds