Because This is how we do.

I had a talk with my dear friend today, and we decided that people are pretty much awesome.

People can be who ever they choose. 
Isn't it interesting the decisions they make?

We talked, and all I could think of was
all the science fair kids,
and the old lady who said I was poised,
and the kids running for student council,
and the halarious boys on KPGR,
and the people at the library and the book store,
and that boy who said, "excuse me" today in the hall instead of just pushing me aside,
and Harvard men that read the paper,
and the kid who trys to break dance at lunch,
and wyatt duclous,

They are all so different, but every single thing they do is wonderful.  And that's the beauty of this crazy world.  You can do what ever it is that you please, and it's than amazing everytime. 

I admire all of these people because they are nothing less than  sincerely themselves. They are nothing less than my heroes.

It's an incredible strength, the courage to be you. 
And I'd like to say that with it comes the world's acceptance.
But it doesn't.
If you have the courage to be yourself and strive to be better people will strive to pull you back down.  Don't ever be shaken, rise above mediocrity and be youself. 

I challenge you, today, to find yourself.  Then to have the courage to follow that person.  It's an impressive task to undertake but worth it.  

Because these people are the ones who will change the world.  It's not because you love them, or the world wishes them the best in their endeavors.. Because most of the time you would probably rather laugh at them and the world certainly doesn't wish them the best.  No.  These people don't get confidence from you, or I, they get it from within. 
And in the end they will do whatever it is that they desire.
They will do the impossible.
Because something inside them is strong enough to do something that many of us gave up on a long time ago, Believe.

You will be marvelous when you lease expect it.

-Linds

Because You Took The Words Right Out Of My Mouth.

"one of the hardest things in life

is having words in your heart you cannot utter" 

-James Earl Jones.

Well, I really can't say what I'd like to say.. so, let's just take a moment to listen. Because these lovely people said it better anyway. 

"I wish I could show you when you are lonely,

or in the darkness,

the astonishing light of your own being."

- Hafiz

"Being strong can be lonely,

But it's worth it."

-An elect lady, Emma Smith

"Everyone may not be good,

But there is good in everyone.

Never judge anyone shortly, becuase every saint has a past.

And every sinner has a future."

-Oscar Wilde.

"Every morning until you're dead in the ground

You've got to make a decision.

You're going to have to ask yourself,

Am I going to believe what them fools say

about me today?"

"Treat others with politeness,

even those who are rude to you.

Not because they are nice.  But because you are."

-Jennifer Thomas

"Live in such a way,

that those who know you, but don't know Christ.

Will want to know Christ, because they know you."

"They say time changes things. 

But you actually have to change them yourself."

-Andy Warhol

"Those who bring sunshine to the lives of others

cannot keep it from themselves."

-The man himself, Peter Pan

Awe.  What a lovely thing to say.

Remember, Nothing is as far away as one minute ago.

Because I'm happy for no reason at all.

I'm happy i went to a softball game with my dear dear friends.. "Best friends, but you're not." haha.

I'm happy that I got an oxygen mask in EMS.

I'm happy that my english video is finished.

I'm happy that I did chemistry at lunch and that it wasn't completly terrible.

I'm happy that I confused you all in my last post.  I know, it gets confusing when i refer to everyone as my best friend.

I'm happy that Mckay was there to explain.

And I'm happy that he's reading this right now.

And here are some lovely pictures.

And I was like, is this a joke?

You will never guess what I just found in my air force back pack.

Yeah. 

This is just the perfect ending to the perfect weekend.

And I just keep pinching myself.

Thankyou, Thankyou.

That was the best use of a tire swing since third grade.

I seriously feel like I might as well have drank this yesterday.

I have a weakness for free... anything.

This Lady?... Yeah.  I sure am glad I went to school yesterday so my substitute could get

someone to listen to her sing. That is her job.

One day I hope to be a fanominal bowler.
For tonight, I'll have to settle for less.

Zupas? Delish.

So, question??  If this is Jimmer range, and Jimmer is Thee man
And Danny drains a bucket from here:

That makes him what?

 

. . .

 

so pretty much this is how the story ends for my best friend..

The prince wins over the princess.

good work bud.

 

and overall.

It's been a pretty great weekend for me too.

 

 

Chin up pal.

The past little bit has been a struggle. 
And I havn't felt right. 
I've just been sad.
And I really didn't understand, because my life is so good.


But I talked to my dad last night and I told him I just wasn't happy.
He told me that sometimes that is part of life.
But he told me when everything falls appart, and you want to give up.  Don't.
Because as soon as you stop, things will just get worse.


If there is one thing I've learned it's, when life gets hard keep fighting.
And if you feel like giving up, keep fighting.
And when everything crashes, keep fighting.


Because as soon as you stop it gets harder.


So hold your head up high, and keep fighting.


Because you can change things.

I have a problem.

It's an obsession, really.

It's with luck.

I OBSESS over luck.

I, no matter the time in my life, always have had a lucky thing.

I've had: a neclace from mexico, an elephant named brahaman, a penny in my shoe.

You name it, i've tried it.

Anyway, I have an app on my ipod that has virtual fortune cookies. 

It is the greatest thing

So everyday, without fail, I read one fortune cookie, virtual fortune.

I limit myself to one.

Yesterday mine said,

 "You will have phenomenal luck."

Awe.  I abesolutly love that.

And, you know, today I had phenomenal luck.

... And even if I really didn't,

I still like the thought.

... And today really was lovely.



enough.

you know, life's a funny thing sometimes.

I always say that i want to write something inspiring, beautiful.  But right now just writing your simple name feels like enough.

I always say i want to go somewhere exotic and have my own adventure.  But tonight i think exploring my covers would be enough. 

I always think of how i could possibly be happy for the rest of my days, but right now my genuine smile is just enough.

I always wonder what i'll do without you by my side, but tonight just sitting with you is enough.

God always gives us just what we need.

I think sometimes we just forget it is simply enough.

Useless.

So, My past fourty eight hours went a bit like this.

Because you all are so very interested in my past fourty eight hours.

I go to school.

Come home from school.

Watch the last three episodes of the O.C.

Lay in bed and read.

Text Bree to go get panda.

Have an ultimatum from Tyson, it's pizza now or you're gonna sit at your house alone all night.

I put on my shoes.

I go get pizza, courtesy of Tyson and Bridgett.

Bree and I listen to my cd.

Bree and I redo my voicemail, 18 million times.

I'm at the taco bell, I'm at the pizza hut/

I'm at the combination taco bell and pizza hut.

I take Bree home.

I read.

I fall asleep at nine thirty.

I wake up at eleven thirty, in the A.M.

I go to target and buy me a new shirt.

I pick up Adam.

We sit creepily in the Allen's parking lot while some little boy has the talk with his mom.

We go to laser assualt.

I get owned.

We go to my house to pick up the ham.

We go and try to find Lauren's house.

We can not possibly find Lauren's house.

We find Lauren's house.

We make some t-shirts.

Mine says Ying.

His says Yang.

We eat pizza's.  Our babys made from our own two hands.

And we dance and we dance and we dance.

And we spin.

We drive Adam home in dear old Andy.

Adam and Andy get in a fight.

Adam's pride is hurt.

Goodnight.

And now it's two in the A.M.

I am watching Tommy Boy and eating oreos.

All the makings of a good night.

Tonight was lovely.  It really was. 

Next time you think something would be fun, but you feel too scared to do it, just do it.

You  might worry about it every second until the time actually comes, but, it will be worth it. 

And if it's not it's like, whatever. 

The heart of a champion

Five years ago there was a little girl who won first place at her school science fair. She was oh so very proud of her work.  She moved on to the district science fair at good old PGHS with all of her best friends.  She stayed there all day and even put up with all of the old mans stupid jokes at the awards ceremony. And she lost.  And all her friends won.  Awe, the poor little girl was heart broken. 


Well,  I went to the science fair once again.  I spent the whole day with bree and my mom fixing my poster... which was the biggest pain in my butt. Then, it rained.  Dang.  Bree and I went to the high school to get set up and (single handedly) carried a two ton steel frame into the school.  We set up Mckay's board for him and then I left bree at the school.  Well I came back an hour later.  Chilled with Mckay, Wyatt, Bree, and Caleb.  Jes, Kendall, Nate, and Erin all came to see us.. Then, came the moment of truth: Judging time.  That is the time that Van Dijk gets up and tells a bunch of less than good chemistry jokes.  Bree, Mckay, and I sat on the very front row.  They call my name! I stroll casually up the stairs to win my prize, a metal! BHAHAH! Take that sixth grade science fair, you will haunt me no more!

 So Sick

 So So Sick.

SOOOOO SICK..

That's all I have to say.