because it was so human

The sun doesn't always shine, and neither do people

And somedays i expect too much from them,

and judge too quickly of them,

and think too little for them.

When the truth is I just don't know enough about them.



-linds.

Nose Goes?

Well, it looks like I've been tagged by a few of you lovely ladies, so here it goes:  Seven Things

(or more accuratly titled: Eighteen Things)

1. My name is Lindsey,

    Linds is better though.

    I like people who call me Linds better, too.

2. Cinco De Mayo is my birthday

3. I have a cat named Lucy

    I secretly like her

4. I have 3 little sisters

    I am the oldest

    I secretly like that, too.

5. I am obsessed with the O.C. and the Office

6. I have one blue eye and one brown eye,

    accompanied by twenty gazillion freckles.

7. I write EVERYTHING down

8. I love to read

9. Words are my inspiration and sanctuary

10. I live to write, and play phase ten with my grandpa

11. I probably speak more fluently in quotes than English

12. I'm not as sympathetic as I should be

13. I admire people,
   
     and I aprecciate people
   
     I like that about me

14. I over-analyze sometimes

     But I guess I like that, too

15. Ever since we learned the trees in biology

     I get distracted when I drive

     because I am always debating on whether
   
     the silver leaf maple is the prettiest,

     or the weeping white birch across the

     street

16. I drive with my windows down 365 days of the year

17. I believe in silent prayers

     and that nothing can beat pictures of your best friends,

     or almond m&m's

18. The one and possibly only thing that I know for
  
     certain after seventeen years: everything is alright




and you are?
-Linds

At ten fifty-nine in the evening

 

Today I sat down to write a letter to a complete stranger about a day I consider to have changed my entire life.
I sat in my pretty yellow chair.
I sat on my soft brown carpet.
I sat on the porch outside my house, and I listened to the birds.
And I sat for hours trying to figure out how on earth I could make her understand why that one moment was so vital to who W am today.  And I finally pinpointed it to one day, one moment, one prayer, but the truth is, it was so my more than that. 

It was the little voice telling me I had to get out before the prayer and it was the little voice telling me I had to get in even before that.  And it was every scary movie, and walk to Macey's, and hurt feeling before that.  The point is, there's every moment before the big one.  Everything is leading to something else.  A moment doesn't define you, a million little moments do.

So maybe today, when I heard those girls making fun of that nice boy in English class, I was supposed to hear something else too.  Maybe I was supposed to hear god saying, you should try to be a little kinder.  Maybe I heard those things so my heart would be a little softer towards the strangers I meet tomorrow.

And maybe it really wasn't just chance in ninth grade that I told that girl standing behind me that I liked her shoes.  Maybe that little voice in my head that told me to say it knew that she'd lead me somewhere beautiful.  I'm prettty sure He knew that we'd be friends. 

And maybe the same thing will happen with the girl I'll compliment tomorrow.

And Even though it's hard, and even though I'm scared, maybe the key is believing that it's all in hopes of a better tomorrow.  Maybe I cried yesterday so I could see what was really so important about today.  And maybe there's just something left that I still need to learn, and maybe this is happening because God loves me enough to teach me.

You have to believe that everything happens right on time.  Today, right now, this moment, is for you.  Nothing is an acciedent.  There is no such thing as coincidence.  You are here, right now.  Your life is changing, today.  You'll have hard times and bad days and you'll be better because of them.  


"Your journey has molded you for the greater good.  It was exactly what it needed to be.  Don't think you've lost time.  It took each and every situation you have encountered to bring you to the now, and now is right on time."
              -Asha Tyson





Tik Tock?

-Linds

   

Whole.

"I want to believe that, in a city of nearly three million people, there has to be someone else who sees the world in the beautiful way that I do."  (Postsecret.com) ^^^^^

Well, I do; I see it.

I see the crazy hair and the sunflowers and the girl reading alone in the library.  I hear the birds and the laughter and the telephone ringing.  I see the trash on the corner and I smell the freshly cut grass.  I lay in the fields and i look at the stars, and I see it.  

I see the weeds growing through the sidewalk cracks and I feel a little sad for them and I guess it's because I know what it's like to feel unwanted.  And in their will to flourish, I see it.

I see the railroad tracks and I hear the bicycle wheels as they turn down my little street past my little house.  I smell the cornbread that I sometimes make on Sundays and I smile at the texts that sometimes make me cry because they are so beautifully sincere.  And through their love, I see it.

I hear my sisters prayers and I feel the truth in that classroom as he talks about God.  I see the kindness in their faces and I see the gratitude in hers as they say she's been wonderful.  And I see it in her tears as they fall.

I get angry when I hear them whisper but then I smile because it may just be that God is trying to teach me something.  Then tears fill my eyes as gratitude fills my heart when I remember those people who've changed me.  And it's in their eyes that I see it. 

And my heart changes shape as I think of you and my eyes widen as I watch that little girl touch her hand gently and my ears lingre a little longer on the I love you's.  Every moment I realize His love a little more fully and everything I see becomes a little more clear.

And I want to shout, "I do. I see it."

I see God's hand as I look to the mountains and I hear His voice in your advice. 

I see it, and I realize that there's something beautiful about an imperfect world, and I realize that maybe things aren't always supposed to go as planned. 

And maybe life can be beautiful without being perfect.